I had a similar experience with breastfeeding. I wanted so, so, so badly to be good at it, but it was tough. We found out after a few weeks into our son’s life that he had a milk protein allergy. Everything I ate contained dairy.. i tried cutting it out for months but it was tough eating out and knowing for sure that the food was 100% dairy free. Butter is in everything. I pumped for months, Eva… trust me… I know it sucks!
Anyway my point is, I felt so much guilt, too… not even the mom world so much, but just from myself. It’s tough out there, and sometimes it’s not even other people doing it to us- it’s ourselves and the high expectations we set. I was so much happier as a mom after we put our boy on a hypoallergenic pre-digested, smells like shit formula.. he was happier too. I was so depressed while trying to do the “right” thing.
Thanks for sharing your story and for reminding us that life is not perfect for anyone.
Also absolutely loved you in Saved… 🙂
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